Be Grateful

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Beberapa malam ini, jujur saya nggak bisa tidur. Semacam mikirin kayak selalu ada yang kurang dalam hidup saya, selalu banyak yang harus didapat. Jadi agak mellow hasilnya selama beberapa hari, dan suatu malam saya berdoa kepada Tuhan, "Rabb, mohon bimbing saya, mohon tunjukkan jalan yang benar, jalan yang berkah, jalan yang Engkau ridhoi. Dan jadikan saya, hamba yang selalu bersyukur."
Setelah kegalau-an dan kesedihan yang entah bermuasal darimana, malamnya saya bermimpi, teman saya menjadi tuna netra. It sucks out, really. Tuhan menjawab doa saya begitu cepat, lewat mimpi, yang singkat tapi sangat melekat. So, pelajaran pertama yang membuat saya tidak bisa mengingkari nikmat-Nya, yakni alhamdulillah saya sehat jasmani rohani, tanpa kurang satu apapun.
Pelajaran kedua, datang 2 hari kemudian. Saya dipanggil mendapat tawaran mengajar privat, anak SD dan SMA. The things that makes me so surprise is mereka keluarga yang sangat cukup secara finansial, tetapi mereka sangat kurang akan kebersamaan, kehangatan dan kenyaman keluarga. Seriously ini bukan kayak di sinetron rasanya, karena saya ngalamin sendiri, rasanya rumah itu penuh tapi sepi tawa, sepi akan kehangatan keluarga. Dan yang harus saya syukuri lagi, I've never been experienced that occasion, I hope not. My mom cherish me alot, protects me alot, loving me that much. Singkat kata, keluarga saya kecil, sederhana, tapi saya nyaman berada disana, seperti kembali ke rumah. Keluarga saya adalah rumah saya. Tempat berpulang, tempat teraman dan ternyaman di dunia. That's how family should be.
Once again, Iam really grateful. Thanks God, giving me a way for experiencing, understanding, give a meaning of every seconds passed by. Thanks

With Laughter or With Tears

will the skies remember all of our times together
in the days far ahead, will we have different fates?
I used to say that there's no tomorrow and that today, I love you
I only had today so my heart felt so rushed
If i didn't tell you that I loved you back then
would we have been happy?
If i didn't tell you that I loved you back then
would we have been happy?

Now I'm finally living a different life
Now we can't call ourselves "us" when it's not "us" anymore

(Derive from translated song "with laughter or with tears")

Thinking Of You (Terinspirasi Ost Drama I miss You)

Dibuat saat pembacaan LPJ

 

21^st of June, 2013 (Mubes Time)

That day, will be the reason for me to recall memories

To mersmerize all of the seconds we shared

Don’t you know how much seconds pass by without you?

Don’t you know I got so many things (include all of the emotions, sad, happy, tears, struggle, etc)

I thought, we were so so far away apart, but at every seconds I walk by

It seems I know you much better,

I know you without communicating each other,

Know you a lot

By looking others eyes, Iam thinking of you

By looking other expressions, I remember the way you express your emotions

By looking everybody talk, I remember your jokes

By looking rain fall heavily, I remember the precious time we shared.